就这样简单你走过来
而我终於明白了
自己为何要存在
慢慢的我已经离不开
因为我已爱上你了
没有任何原因的
如果我说爱你 能不能永远相信
这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以後都能在一起
每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手 我和你 甜蜜的走
世界宽得有一些无奈
你和我只有一个
该怎么不怕孤单
说好了我们都要勇敢
就算不小心迷路了
也能够听见你的
如果我说爱你 能不能永远相信
找到你的幸运多完美(多完美)
所有感觉多特别(多特别)
想带你走到世界边缘(喔)
未来 不变
这一天我想跟着你
跟你说你最爱的笑话
我想以後都能在一起
每天想着你已变成习惯
一直幻想你在我身边
牵着你的手 我和你 甜蜜的走
我和你 甜蜜的走
okayys I'm not emoing arhs.
just think that this song is very nice!
ohh anyway, went woodland starbucks with marho today.
and eunice tok is working there!
so happy to see her cos I got free latte or wadeva.
hahaha nice nice!
and it was nice talking to her! :D
ahhh shit I'm addicted to a kiddy game called cooking academy.
LOL
okay shall continue studying after I finish playing!
xD
HELLOS.
I've effectively slacked for erm, quite long.
since the moment I handed in my math paper till now.
YUCKS AND SUCKS TO MATH.
actually if we can do math JUST FOR FUN and no exams at all, I would think that math is fun and interesting.
but with exams, MATH IS A BIG NO NO.
my brain is not made for math.
neither is it made for other subjects -.-
hahaha I dread to get back all my papers.
I'm scared that I need to go for another SSR, or to drag my mother to see some dean again.
arghh forget it.
2 halves left!
csc and cll.
if I slack, I shall kill myself.
I know I'll definitely slack.
so I shall go library to study.
to force myself to gulp down all the notes -.-
lol.
and I watched 溏心风暴 episode 21 online today.
feels SO SHUANG to see the small mother being chased out!
hahaha I always feel like giving her a tight slap.
=x
okays if I'm not tired, I shall start mugging at erm, mabbe 1
but the chances of me mugging today is rather slim.
when I look at you, I know we no longer belong to the same world. that's when I tell myself, to stop thinking of you.
RAWRS.
2 and 2 halves done, 1 and 2 halves more to go!
jiayou jiayou!
the next paper is my most HATED paper.
MATH! @$#@%#@!^%!^
if only my brain is made for math and science.
hahas.
I dun dare to have too high expectations that I'll do better than last blocks.
but I tried and will try my best.
anyways went to kap with wanglin, jon ong, denyse, zang and lilong after our csc paper just now.
lol I always enjoy going out with them, cos they nv fail to make me laugh.
hahaha and there was a heavy downpour all of a sudden when we alighted.
there were 6 ppl and only 3 umbrellas.
so obviously have to share.
and I've no choice but to share with our handsome boy wanglin.
but got umbrella = no umbrella at all.
haha I got drenched and my whole uniform wet.
lol but it was quite funny hearing wanglin screaming into my ears in THAT WEIRD voice.
after that took 852 home.
passed by nanyang.
I think the last time I stepped into nanyang was tchers' day
how I miss nanyang.
the fun we had.
was talking abt the past with gongzie last night.
hahah she said nanyang doesnt have suckers like you.
yea seriously I think you ruined my college life.
oh well but I'm the one who choose to wallow in misery.
-.-
anyways just finish watching 溏心风暴!
alfred and chang zai xin got together!
quite sweet but poor pretty ok.
):
okays back to reality.
shall take a nap and mug ltr.
JIAYOU.
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
SUX TO STUDYING.
I feel like vomitting nowadays.
totally no appetite at all.
and I'm super tired.
RAHHHS
and sux to you too.
haha I told gongzie I will throw a big feast on the day when I'm really able to stop thinking abt it.
I'm waiting for this day.
from now on I'll try to stop thinking, stop caring and get you outta my mind.
it's not easy. I hope I can do it.
I really want you to get outta my life asap.
okay shall go back to study soon.
studying is making me nuts -.-
oh anyways it's suayu's birthday tmr.
happy birthday suayu! (:
Haix.
you make me very miserable.
I hate the feeling it sux.
I rather I dunnoe anything at all.
I HATE IT.
can you get out of my life.
I really feel very miserable.
why do I have to act as thou I'm fine everything.
I hate it. I really hate it. it sux.
it's over long ago. I knew it.
but I cant help it.
I REALLY HATE MYSELF.
I'm really very tired of it.
I wanna disappear from your sight forever and ever.
RAHS.
3 days of SSR over. 2 more days!
it's crazy man.
I feel like puking whenever I enter reading room.
I wonder why.
some feeling of suffocation.
and I dun have appetite.
and I dun feel like sleeping even thou I sleep average 3.5 hrs a day.
I feel very -.-
hahaha.
but glad I've mao for entertainment.
he noes a great deal of gossips and jokes.
always make me laugh.
but he's qian bian at times too.
when he's bored he'll ka jiao me, read my inbox ALOUD, read out somebody's hp no. or mention some fei stuff.
and these are the things he drew during ssr. 
YES the last picture is ME -.-
some weird doraemon he drew.
some ppl shld noe who's the ostrich. yea sux.
hahaha.
okays time to go back mugging.
SSR AGAIN TMR @!$!@$%!@%
Tmr marks the start of the torture in school.
8 to 5
RAWRS.
hope I can find some nice kind soul to study with me cos I dun wanna be alone!
one more week to blocks.
sian diao.
I shall continue studying at erm, 10 which is approximately 27min from now!
went to woodlands lib to study with marho.
and we sat beside her primary school clasmate, which makes him my primary school schoolmate cos we were from the same primary.
eh yea wadeva. haha
but sadly the guy didnt recognise her.
it's quite amusing to have 3 chongfu ppl sharing the same table =.=
how time flies.
hahaha oh yea and I saw pohchoon too!
seems that woodlands library is a popular place for ppl to study.
okay wad a meaningless post.
study study study!
WHEEES.
haha went kbox with denyse, lilong, wanglin and jon ong yesterday! =D
I love going out with them cos we always love to zi-high and indulge!
hahas.
it was quite fun but I think I didnt sing enough!
and Lee Lilong go there sleep, eat peanuts and gay arnd with jon ong only!
lol but at least he didnt throw peanuts into our mouths.
hehs love their company
hope we can have another kbox session, hmmm mabbe after A levels. hahas.
meanwhile mug hard bah.
haix 2 more weeks left.
sians.
okay shall do some meme again to kill my boredom -.-
What's on your bedside table?
a random photo of my sis -.-, my hp, camera charger, usb port for camera, a small puppy keychain. okays I noe my bedsde table is filled with random stuff. haha.
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?
pttttf. there's nth much in my fridge.
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?
huh. no idea. haha cant think of any at the moment.
What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment?
play with my hair or my shirt bah. haha
Do you know anyone famous?
dun think so.
Describe your bed.
super single -.- comfortable and nice
Spontaneous or plan?
depends bah
Who should play you in a movie about your life?
-.- haha my life is boring so it wun be made into a movie.
Do you know how to play poker?
whoops. nope
What do you carry with you at all times?
myself -.-
What do you miss most about being little?
my friends. cartoons. free from troubles.
What color is your bedroom?
light pink.
What was the last song you were listening to?
承诺
Have you ever been in a play?
I guess so. Choral night, TEAHSE. haha huangcheng too but backstage larh.
Have you ever had your heart broken?
yepps.
Who are your best friends?
friends who are always true to me (:
Do you talk a lot?
LOL. yes I'm super talkative -.-
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?
haha not really.
Do you think you're cute?
of cos! hahaha.
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?
friends =D
Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?
violin or piano
What kind of soap do you use?
I dun use soap.
What's the one language you want to learn?
jap or korean bah. I noe it's asking "the one language" but urghs.
How do you eat an apple?
bite lah -.- use my teeeeth.
Have you ever pierced your body parts?
not by myself. but pierced my ears? -.-
Do you have tattoos?
no thanks.
What's one trait you hate in a person?
dao-ness -.- as thou you're someone great or wadeva
Do you consider yourself materialistic?
not really I think.
What do you cook the best?
maggie mee anyone? LOL
Favorite writing instrument?
pen -.- or pencil -.-
Do you prefer to stand out or blend in?
depends on who you're refering to.
.
What kind of books do you like to read?
thriller, love stories. haha.
If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
SCREAM.
Burial or cremation?
Cremated.
How many online journals do you read regularly?
erms. denyse, wanglin, jonathan, zang. sometimes siying, lilong, kaijie, everin.
Do you cry in front of friends?
Yepps
What kind of first impression do you think you give to people?
fierce and dao -.-
When wass the last time you cried?
cant rmb.
Favorite communication method?
sms.
What's the most painful experience you've ever had?
relatives leaving me one by one, esp my grandparents.
Can you type with your eyes closed?
yepps shld be okay
Can you say the alphabet backwards effortlessly?
Nope I guess not.
Can you tie a knot in a cherry stem with your tongue?
nope -.-
Can you run a mile in under ten minutes?
I just managed to pass my 2.4 -.-
Can you stand the sight of blood?
haha nope.
Can you read palms or tarot cards?
nope.
Can you admit it when you're wrong?
haha. most of the time.
Can you ask for help when you need it?
duh.
Can you name three kinds of clouds?
fluffy, grey, white -.- HAHA WADEVA.
Can you perform CPR on another human?
nope.
Do you know what CPR stands for?
Something about resuscitation -.-
Can you read minds?
hahah I wish I could.
Can you write better poetry than Shakespeare?
of cos not.
Can you speak more than one language?
yeah
What are you wearing right now?
shorts and shirt.
haha okays I noe my blog's boring.
but nvms -.-
tireddd. shall slp soon.
如果我把我的手放在背后;愿不愿意牵著一起走
Hellos.
I'm falling sick soon.
SIANS.
:(
but anyways happy birthday sis!
MEME TIME AGAIN! xD
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
- my hair looks horrible.
2. How much cash do you have on you?
- $40+
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR?"
- ROAR? I hope I'm right. haha
4. Favorite planet?
- earth -.-
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
- jonathan. but it was his brother who called me. haha.
6. What about the 4th text message?
- tooty.
7. What shirt are you wearing?
- haha. Huangcheng 2007 shirt :D
8. Do you "label" yourself as anything?
- dumb. HAHA okay nopes -.-
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
- I'm not wearing any shoes now. but my sch shoes = nike (:
10. Bright or Dark room?
- bright.
11. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- watching tv. whoops.
12. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say.?
- 'i think got camp dry run leh but i dunnoe what time it is/whether im going/whether its compulsary aye.your mum allow you go kbox ah!'
13. Where is your letter box?
- like downstairs?
14. What's a word that you say a lot?
- SIAN.
15.Who told you he/she loved you last?
- I suppose hanzhi? haha.
16. Last furry thing you touched?
- dunnoe leh -.-
17. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
- it has been ages since I develop rolls of film -.-
18. Favorite age you have been so far?
- erm. haha not sure.I guess when I was still super young?
19. Your worst enemy?
- LALALA YOU.
20. What is your current desktop picture?
- First, Second and Current President of SGI :D
21. what was the last thing you said to someone?
- byebye.
22. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
- million dollars. so shiok can buy alot of things. hahas.
23. Do you like someone?
- wad a question. hahas
24. The last song you listened to?
- quite a dumb song. 结果嘞 by 大嘴巴
25. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump infront of the bullet?
- I think so? the last person I spoke to was my sister. haha.
26. If you could punch 1 person in your life right now, who would it be?
- WAD A NICE QUESTION. haha YOU -.-
27. My uncle once:
- erm, bought dinner for the whole family -.- like I've quite a number of uncles
28. Never in my life Have I:
- smoke or consume drug.
29. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile:
- YOU.
30. High School was:
- FUN :D
31. When I'm nervous:
- I tremble and break into cold sweat -.-
32. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be:
- how would I noe. haha mabbe DENYSE? lols
33. My hair:
- straight long black.
34. When I was 5:
- I was in kindergarten! and enjoying my life :D unlike now -.-
35. Last Christmas I:
- lols asked someone some impt question -.-
36. When I turn my head left, I see:
- fan -.-
37. When I turn my head right, I see:
- wall with Show Luo's posters.
38. When I look down I see:
- my pe shorts -.-
39. The craziest recent event was:
- mugging for blocks -.-
40. If I was a character on Friends I'd be:
- I dun watch friends.
41. By this time next year:
- I'll be working I guess.
42. My favorite Aunt is:
- erms. none I think. no preference -.-
43. I have a hard time understanding:
- people like YOU. I've a hard time concentrating too.
44. One time at a family gathering:
- I stoned and watched tv -.-
45. You know I like you if:
- I keep talking to you and one fine day, decide to tell you so. hahas.
46. If I won an award, the first person(people) I'd thank is:
- erms. my family? or the person who helped me alot.
47. Take my advice:
- to mug now? -.-
48. My ideal breakfast is:
- lols. I seldom eat breakfast.
49. If you visit my hometown:
- there's northpoint, if I consider my hometown as yishun -.-
50. Soon I plan on visiting:
- hwachong institution [college] -.-
51. If you spend the night at my house:
- I'll zi high with you :D
52. I'd stop my wedding if:
- erms. there's a hole in my gown? HAHAS. okay stupid -.- wadever.
53. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
- YUCKS. erm rather than being eaten up by snake -.- okay wadeva.
54. Most recent thing someone else bought for me:
- dinner ._.
55. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are:
- PIG. mabbe elephant too hahahaha.
56. I shouldn't have been:
- SLACKING.
57. Last night:
- was 2nd June -.-
58. There's this girl I know who:
- brings joy and laughter to me! HAHAS.
59. This guy I know:
- he sux big time.
60. A better name for me would be:
- I'm fine with meixuan. just that I dun really like the word 'mei'
61. If I ever go back to school:
- I'll work harder.
62. How many days until my birthday?:
- 22 days ago -.-
OKAYS enough meme. I feel like sleeping. damn.
I shall go settle my dinner and watch tv! mug late at night! hahaha.
WHEEES.
new blogskin!
hahaha I'm boredd.
okay I shall do a meme now and I swear I'll start mugging after that.
Who is your best guy friend?
LOLS. I really dunnoe. I guess jon ong and wanglin bah. hahaha.
Are you in a good mood right now?
quites. but I'm bored.
The phone rings; What do you say?
HELLOS.
Are you mean?
depends
Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
I seldom hide them. hahaha
Happiest moment of 2008 so far?
Lol. when I'm with my friends. and huangcheng!
What are you drinking?
nth at the moment.
How is your hair?
straight and long.
Who do you tell the most to?
gongzie, tooty, denyse, maygin
Last time you had a sleepover?
can't rmb leh. lol means quite long ago le.
Latest you stayed up in the past week?
3am
Have you been in a car accident?
CHOY.
Who's the first person on your missed calls list?
some unknown number but too lazy to call back and find out who.
Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
depends bah. haha
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
yepps.
What are you wearing?
pure milk shirt and nanyang pe shorts. haha
Do you remember your dreams?
most of them
Do you speak another language other than English?:
yea. chinese. hokkien counted? HAHA.
What do you hate?
YOU.
Orange or apple juice?
both are nice!
Can you vote in next election?
I suppose I can
Where were you at 2:02 this morning?
reading gp bulletin -.-
Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
-.- yepps.
Do you cry easily?
yepps.
Do you have unlimited texting?
nope. sian.
How old will you be in 13 months?
19. old alr.
Last time you cried?
two days ago I suppose. haha cant rmb.
Do you enjoy life?
not really.
What's on your mind right now?
mugging -.-
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
dunnoe. haha leave it to fate bah -.-
What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
more mugging ._.
Anything exciting tomorrow?
tuition again -.-
Are you having a good day today?
so-so
Do you have any gay friends?
HAHAS.
When do you go to sleep?
whenever I want to.
Is there anybody that you trust 100%?
my family?
What is something that confuses you?
yea.
Have you ever been on a plane?
yepps =.=
How is your relationship with your mother?
hahaha erm, depends.
What did you do last night?
mugged -.-
What color is the nail polish on your nails?
healthy normal orginal colour -.-
What color is your bedspread?
blue.
Do you miss anybody right now?
yeah, pretty much. as always.
Who do you phone when you're having a bad day?
usually maygin
Are you in a fight with a friend right now?
nope.
Does love frighten you?
quites.
How hard is your life right now?
it's quite soft -.-
Are you wearing makeup?
duh of cos not.
Will you leave the house without makeup on?
yes as I alywas do.
Have you ever fallen for your best friend's guy?
no.
Are you getting back together with your ex boyfriend?
LOL. NOPES. no hope at all.
Do you stay friends with your ex boyfriends?
trying hard to.
Are you jealous of your best friends?
lol depends. but usually nope.
Where are you right now?
in my room.
What is something that you have forgiven someone for lately?
cant rmb.
If your boyfriend breaks up with you for another girl, and then decides he wants you back, do you jump at the chance?
hahaha dun think so.
Does anybody hate you?
yeah probably
Do you like anyone?
yepps.
Do you use any kind of lip gloss/lip balm?
when I need it? haha nivea cherry flavour LOLS.
Do you like dinosaurs!?
cartoon baby dinos are cute -.-
What was the last board game you played?
can't recall.
If you couldn't find the remote where is the first place you look?
sofa.
How do you feel about Hello Kitty?
erm. yea liddat lor.
If someone gave you $100,000 to shave your head, would you?
hahaha mabbe.
Do small children like you?
hahahah most of them?
What's one dream where you woke up crying?
I dun think I ever cried after a dream.
Do you still draw with sidewalk chalk?
nope.
What's usually on TV at this time of day?
写意人生
What happened at 11:00?
mugging.
Did you receive anything special today?
nope.
Do you have any coloring books?
nope =.=
Did you have any homework today?
yepps -.-
wad a boring meme. okay it's time to mug again. I've been slacking as and when I like. TERRIBLE.